Piss Session

I spent some time at night working late and ran into Master Joe online. We had a short talk about where things would be a year from now which I’ve not thought about, increasing levels of intensity, how getting addicted to the sessions could be a good thing…

I have noticed that I’ve been more receptive to orders. That was after that one punishment session when I asked for time to think. I said then that I’d be more compliant and see how that would be and I’m glad that Master Joe has noticed my efforts, which makes me want to try even harder. Also, the training must be working and as of now, I am happy enough to just take it one session at a time and see where it goes.

Finally, with regards to healing, I would like to try meeting every alternate week, perhaps? That would be a week of sessions and a week of healing in between. Maybe we could try this for a while and see how it works. I already have a feeling I’ll soon be asking for more sessions again, but I’d like to try if Master Joe thinks it’s a good idea.

The session:

I did appreciate the fact that Master Joe let me take off the rope from my neck without me asking when he noticed it got too tight. I also liked how the rope looked but am afraid of rope burns on the neck, so asked not to do it again until we have a better one.

I wasn’t sure if I could piss but I wanted to, so when offered the choice between bed and kneeling, I intentionally chose kneeling to get in a proper headspace and be able to do it. Would not have worked on the bed.

The process of building up the piss worked well. Master Joe was good at not spooking me, and there were many things that worked well. Letting me sit on the bed…getting me to drink on my own instead of really forcing me to drink…all that was very well done. I wasn’t tempted to use my safeword throughout, or even to ask to slow down.

The response after pissing wasn’t what I was expecting at all and we’ve talked about this already. Normally I’d be looking forward to next session but after this time I didn’t even want to think about the next one.

Sunday, February 20, 2011 8:39 AM

The last session involved mainly tit bondage and a bit of torture. And a big humiliation at the end, when I was made to fuck myself with the spoon we used to beat my bound tits with. The session was nice for the most part. Master Joe told me he would be a little late and sent me a message telling me to practice the tit bondage while I waited, which I did.

When he came on, he allowed me to stay on the bed this time. I wasn’t sure if I was happy about that or disappointed! I was still required to don the usual collar, which was good. We discussed the task list and I was told that even a delayed journal gets me -5, reminded me of the gloves and electric cord, etc.

The best part of the session was the tit and cunt slapping. I was a bit wary of hitting too hard since they were already bound, but I could still feel the beats. The scratching with the tack paddle also worked much better than on unbound tits, but again I was trying not to draw blood so didn’t do it very hard. The beats with the tack were also okay – just five. In fact I would even say it was enjoyable…compared to the first time when I started dripping with blood…although I didn’t hit as hard as I did before. Maybe next time…

The tacks on the thighs were good. Could possibly have done more? I don’t know.

The worst part about the session was the spoon fucking. It was humiliating, and considering a few sessions ago, I couldn’t even bring myself to properly bend over, it was a big humiliation. But once I got down and did it, the act of fucking myself wasn’t so bad…and I even think it could have been a fun humiliation if I hadn’t been worried about how disgustingly unhygienic the wooden spoon in my cunt was! I’m sure the wood had tons of stuff on it…and with my periods starting at the same time, it felt even worse afterwards. Next time, I’ll make sure I have some condoms nearby to use on things like the spoon.

Yuck, even thinking about what came next makes me cringe in disgust. Master Joe wanted me to lick the spoon. I managed to lick it once and very quickly. But that wasn’t enough since I was told to then suck it…get my lips around it. So I did. I was dying to complain at this point but knew Master Joe wouldn’t like that. I did make sure that I absolutely did not touch the spoon with my tongue, though. Even when I was told to fuck my mouth with it…my tongue was not going anywhere near that thing. But I could still taste my cunt on my lips. Partly that excites me a little but mostly I’m grossed out. Or it could be I’m mostly excited and a little grossed out – I’ve not quite figured that out yet J

We ended up talking about things other than the session, which was very interesting…still talking about our sessions, tasks, etc is more fun!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011: 07:20 AM

Clothes Pins:

I’d tried regular clothes pins before – just around the body, etc, but never the zipper. It was interesting – very scary during the countdown, but got a great rush afterwards. The countdown made me increasingly nervous at first and by the end, it was pretty much all scary. Still I really wanted to see how it would feel so just took a deep breath and did it. It had me gasping in pain for a few seconds – and I was trying not to make much sound – but after that, there was a good feeling of pleasure. This lasted for a few seconds only and then it was just a dull pain before it went away. I’d definitely try this again, but probably not until the first bruises heal!

Orgasm:

Since I was told I could cum in the shower, I took a shower after the session. Still need to cum twice more during showers.

List of things to get:

The ones crossed out have already been bought.

a.        Band aid

b.        Thumb tacks

c.        Saran wrap

d.       Rubber band

e.        Candles

f.        Rope – pencil thick: tried a bunch of shops. Only found plastic. Got about 10m.

g.        Lock and key: found a tiny lock and key.

h.       Duct tape: aluminum foil tape?

i.         Syringes: they only had 1mL ones – very thin. Can find others if this doesn’t work.

j.         Toothpicks

k.       Chopsticks

l.         Find gloves

m.      Notebook

n.       More thumbtacks

o.        Rubbing alcohol

p.       Saran wrap