Sunday, February 20, 2011 8:39 AM

The last session involved mainly tit bondage and a bit of torture. And a big humiliation at the end, when I was made to fuck myself with the spoon we used to beat my bound tits with. The session was nice for the most part. Master Joe told me he would be a little late and sent me a message telling me to practice the tit bondage while I waited, which I did.

When he came on, he allowed me to stay on the bed this time. I wasn’t sure if I was happy about that or disappointed! I was still required to don the usual collar, which was good. We discussed the task list and I was told that even a delayed journal gets me -5, reminded me of the gloves and electric cord, etc.

The best part of the session was the tit and cunt slapping. I was a bit wary of hitting too hard since they were already bound, but I could still feel the beats. The scratching with the tack paddle also worked much better than on unbound tits, but again I was trying not to draw blood so didn’t do it very hard. The beats with the tack were also okay – just five. In fact I would even say it was enjoyable…compared to the first time when I started dripping with blood…although I didn’t hit as hard as I did before. Maybe next time…

The tacks on the thighs were good. Could possibly have done more? I don’t know.

The worst part about the session was the spoon fucking. It was humiliating, and considering a few sessions ago, I couldn’t even bring myself to properly bend over, it was a big humiliation. But once I got down and did it, the act of fucking myself wasn’t so bad…and I even think it could have been a fun humiliation if I hadn’t been worried about how disgustingly unhygienic the wooden spoon in my cunt was! I’m sure the wood had tons of stuff on it…and with my periods starting at the same time, it felt even worse afterwards. Next time, I’ll make sure I have some condoms nearby to use on things like the spoon.

Yuck, even thinking about what came next makes me cringe in disgust. Master Joe wanted me to lick the spoon. I managed to lick it once and very quickly. But that wasn’t enough since I was told to then suck it…get my lips around it. So I did. I was dying to complain at this point but knew Master Joe wouldn’t like that. I did make sure that I absolutely did not touch the spoon with my tongue, though. Even when I was told to fuck my mouth with it…my tongue was not going anywhere near that thing. But I could still taste my cunt on my lips. Partly that excites me a little but mostly I’m grossed out. Or it could be I’m mostly excited and a little grossed out – I’ve not quite figured that out yet J

We ended up talking about things other than the session, which was very interesting…still talking about our sessions, tasks, etc is more fun!

Tuesday, January 18, 2011: 07:20 AM

Clothes Pins:

I’d tried regular clothes pins before – just around the body, etc, but never the zipper. It was interesting – very scary during the countdown, but got a great rush afterwards. The countdown made me increasingly nervous at first and by the end, it was pretty much all scary. Still I really wanted to see how it would feel so just took a deep breath and did it. It had me gasping in pain for a few seconds – and I was trying not to make much sound – but after that, there was a good feeling of pleasure. This lasted for a few seconds only and then it was just a dull pain before it went away. I’d definitely try this again, but probably not until the first bruises heal!

Orgasm:

Since I was told I could cum in the shower, I took a shower after the session. Still need to cum twice more during showers.

List of things to get:

The ones crossed out have already been bought.

a.        Band aid

b.        Thumb tacks

c.        Saran wrap

d.       Rubber band

e.        Candles

f.        Rope – pencil thick: tried a bunch of shops. Only found plastic. Got about 10m.

g.        Lock and key: found a tiny lock and key.

h.       Duct tape: aluminum foil tape?

i.         Syringes: they only had 1mL ones – very thin. Can find others if this doesn’t work.

j.         Toothpicks

k.       Chopsticks

l.         Find gloves

m.      Notebook

n.       More thumbtacks

o.        Rubbing alcohol

p.       Saran wrap

Monday, January 17, 2011: 06:00 AM

Bondage:

Was required to get up at 5:00 am yesterday. It was the weekend, and it doesn’t really matter what times I keep, so it felt fine. Ended up a bit later than expected. When Master Joe mentioned we were going to experiment with bondage, I was pretty excited. I’d never been tied up before – only handcuffs for fun. The rope wasn’t really long enough, but being tied up felt good. I could still move around since the top half was free, and I’m excited to try more. I was asked to buy a lock and key, and the thought of being tied up, and locked in place is very hot. Master Joe left unexpectedly, and I waited. Was wriggling my toes since they kept falling asleep, but made it to 20 minutes – seemed like forever. By then I’d decided to give up at 30 minutes so stuck it out for ten more minutes. Also had a bit of fun stretching and trying to feel the rope in my cunt.

Chili Oil:

This was an interesting experience. At times it was more painful than most things I’ve done – the chilli inside the cunt, for example – but at other times, it left me throbbing hot and swollen. I wanted to get more oil on my cunt, even though I knew it would hurt initially because once the initial burn died down, it felt very good. Especially on the outside. Soon my cunt lips got used to it, and even adding more oil did not enhance the sensations. As I said, I’d tried this with this thing called Tiger Balm – a mentholated cream – before, which was less intense, but had similar effects of leaving my cunt throbbing and a bit numb.

The chilli on the inside bit was pure punishment. There was a time – surprisingly initially – when I didn’t really feel that much burn, and it felt quite good. But after a while, it started burning quite bad, and I had no desire to add any more oil in. One of the hottest bits was when I said that it hurt, and Master Joe replied, ‘I know it does,’ and just expected me to get on with it. A little bit of sadism goes a long way for this sub!

Cleaning Apartment:

I sometimes wander about naked in the apartment anyway, usually at night so this wasn’t a big deal. It was hot knowing that Master Joe was enjoying the thought of me doing my chores naked. Did most of the apartment, except didn’t have time to do the sheets. Might do them next week.

Toothpicks:

The toothpicks were completely new. I had no idea you could have so much fun with them. I especially enjoyed the make-shift gag – the thought of it anyway. I can’t say how much fun it would be to be made to do that for a long time – not much I’m guessing! The toothpicks on the tits were cool when it worked. And the claws were good for two reasons – the scratching was very nice, especially on the thighs and stomach. The breasts were okay…but didn’t really do much. The second reason I liked the claws was it hindered me when doing things – like lifting the spoon, for instance. That was interesting.